“Naked and Exposed”
One of the most vulnerable positions a person can be in is standing naked in front of someone. There’s no hiding or masking even the slightest flaw. This semester has been a wrestle for me. God has been doing some deep mining in my heart since November, and it only intensified as time went on. I’ve experienced a lot of freedom, but also a lot of vulnerability, lamenting, confronting and confessing sin (like shame, lies about my worth, and being unkind to myself). The results have been so good, but also so hard. When those thoughts and behaviors are what feel “normal,” “right,” or “just the way things are/have always been” it can feel like a literal breaking, ripping, tearing, and dying to confront them. And it often felt as though nothing would ever change. Like the roots of these false beliefs were so deeply ingrained and intertwined with the deepest parts of my soul I didn’t even know where to start. Hope was a small, frail, and distant thing. My faith was tested
